My Strange Little World

Hey all, 'sup? Sorry I haven't posted in ages. The reason is that I have a new journal. I'll probably still update this off and on. My new Blog is http://www.livejournal.com/users/dean_bean. Bye for now!

Oh man, what a day. For once, work wasn't the root of the problems (at least I don't think it was). I've just spent 6 hours in the emergency room for what I thought was just strep throat. Turns out that I've got either extremely aggressive tonsillitis or even possibly mono. Oh lovely. I spent about 4 hours of that time with an IV in my right arm, pumping antibiotics, steroids, and saline into my bloodstream. They had a specialist come in because I apparently had a golf ball sized pouch of pus in the back of my throat. The specialist was a bit worried because he though it might have been an abcess, which would be a possible sign of worse things to come. If it had been an abcess, they were going to drain the pus out of it. The doctor was even getting the morphine ready. Luckily, it's not an abcess, but is still worrisome. They're testing the blood they drew from my left arm and should have the results in about an hour. But the problem is that even if the tests tonight come back negative for mono, I could still have it because it is an extremely elusive disease. The upside of the whole thing is that I'm not allowed back to work until the doctor says so. At this point, that's at least a week. Anyway, I have to rest now because the doctor said so.

*Sighs* Work is really starting to stress me out. We have no one on dayshift, meaning I'm spending entire days in drive thru cash. I've already spent the last 3 days back there and judging by the schedule, tomorrow will be the same. And of course we've been completely slammed every day. Yesterday at breakfast we took in $1700. That's an average Saturday, the busiest day of the week. I'm giving myself till the end of september to find another job. Then, whether I have one or not, I'm quitting McDonald's. Then there's my problem of dwelling on things I shouldn't be which really tends to affect my work. Right now there's two things that I can't stop thinking about. One of them is my friend Michelle. She's going through some really tough times and I'm worried about her, as a friend should be. The other problem is another "friend" of mine. I put friend in quotes, because I'm really not sure what to consider her anymore. I don't want to lose her friendship, but on the other hand, she's hurt a lot of my friends and in doing so hurt me and I don't want any more pain from her. She's caused enough. What a dilemmna.

On a brighter note, the combination of work and me dwelling on too many things has finally given me an inspiration for my musical, which to date remains unnamed. But I hadn't had an inspiration in almost 2 months, so It was well needed. At this rate, I'll be finished with the show in 10 years or so. Oh well...I guess this is what they call life. *Sighs*

Quote of The Day:
That's life, that's what all the people say
You're ridin' high in April, shot down in May
But I know I'm gonna change that tune
When I'm back on top, back on top in June

I said that's life, and as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks stompin' on a dream
But I don't let it, let it get me down
'cause this fine old world, it keeps spinnin' around

I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate, a poet, a pawn and a king
I've been up and down and over and out and I know one thing
Each time I find myself flat on my face
I pick myself up and get back in the race

That's life, I tell you I can't deny it
I thought of quitting, baby, but my heart just ain't gonna buy it
And if I didn't think it was worth one single try
I'd jump right on a big bird and then I'd fly

I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate, a poet, a pawn and a king
I've been up and down and over and out and I know one thing
Each time I find myself layin' flat on my face
I just pick myself up and get back in the race

That's life, that's life and I can't deny it
Many times I thought of cuttin' out but my heart won't buy it
But if there's nothin' shakin' come this here July
I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball a-and die

My, my!
-"That's Life!", By Frank Sinatra

Okay, work just seems to get suckier and suckier everyday (I don't know if 'suckier' is even a word, but I don't give a flying ****!). All the minors are back on night shift because of school which means dayshift is really short staffed. Now you figure in the fact that we're losing two more to college in a couple of weeks. That leaves us with a grand total of, let's see now...add 3 and carry the 5, plus the square root of pi...NO ONE for dayshift. And to make matters worse, I seem to be the only person capable of running the register in drive thru anymore. I just spent 7 friggin' hours back there!! They try to hire people, but they all quit within a week. Must...find...new...job before...I kill...myself!!!

I used to escape by seeing my friends at night, but now everyone is going back to school. This means that it's practically down to Michelle, Ali, and myself. Not much fun playing hide 'n' seek with guns with 3 people (no I'm not kidding, we do use bb guns.). The next couple of weeks are going to be very difficult because I'm also having trouble at home, but I'm not going into that here because I rant too much already. It's like the old saying says, everytime you think you've hit bottom, someone throws you a shovel. I must find my friends and vent some of this frustration before I rip all of my hair out.

Quote:
I look into my morning mirror
And it reveals some things to me that I had not been able to see
I saw someone that I'm not sure I want to be
An empty lonely face was starin' back at me

All and all, I would have to say
It's been a rather dismal day

The afternoon was slow in coming
I drug myself outside the people that I knew would be there
And though they walked along pretending not to care
I knew behind my back they'd point and laugh and stare

All and all, I would have to say
It's been a rather dismal day

And now the evening shadow's falling
I guess it's best I lay my hopes to rest for noone's calling my name
I sit and wait behind a door that's never knocked on
I live in silence like my phone that's never talked on

All and all, I would have to say
It's been a rather dismal day
-"Dismal Day", By Bread

Well, overall work went smoothly today, except for the last 10 minutes. I finished doing something the shift manager asked me to do and was on my to inform him. The grill manager told me to get some gloves on and give her a hand making sandwiches. Of course I said I would, but it would be a minute because I had to wash my hands; she said she didn't care, just get over here. On my way to wash up, I saw the manager whom had just gotten in getting ready to relieve the other manager. He had gloves on already, so I asked him to get a head start on the sandwiches so I could wash up and get gloves on. The other manager then proceeded to yell and say I was ignoring her and that she was going to write me up. The other thing that bugs me about this is that she's the aunt of a good friend from high school. I guess now I can see how family members can differ.

Not much else to report, although I'm becoming quite worried about one of my friends. Her life was running smoothly and she was truly happy for the first time in a long time. But now she's getting really depressed again and It just worries me. Call me a worrywart, but I can't stand seeing my friends hurt or down. I always try to do everything I can to rectify the situation. Oh well, hopefully things will start getting better soon.

Quote of the Day (Especially for my friends):

When you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand
and nothing, whoa, nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there
to brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there, yeah, yeah,
you've got a friend.

If the sky above you should turn dark and full of clouds
and that old north wind should begin to blow,
keep your head together and call my name out loud.
Soon I will be knocking upon your door.
You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there.

Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend? People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you. Well, they'll take your soul if you let them,
oh yeah, but don't you let them.

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call, Lord, I'll be there, yeah, yeah,
you've got a friend. You've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend. Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
Oh, yeah, yeah, you've got a friend.
-"You've Got A Friend", By James Taylor

Well, nothing interesting to report today. Work sucked more than usual, because several people decided not to show up. Oh well. I'm bored, so here's an internet quiz:


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GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooo pissed at my coworkers and managers right now. One of the managers changed the schedule and left us with no one and didn't bother to let us know. So 12 o'clock came around and two people said that they had to get off at noon. We barely got them out. But then, one of my coworkers decided to be a grade a a-hole and walk out, leaving me at the drive thru register by myself, taking orders and cash in the middle of lunch. That wouldn't have been so bad if I had had more sleep, we weren't completely slammed, and people weren't giving me huge, complicated orders and then adding crap at the window. I swear I came THISCLOSE to just walking out myself. And judging by the schedule, tomorrow will be the same way. I'm half tempted to call off. Well, I have to go and find a way to alleviate my stress. *Grumbles*